Chapter 1: The Inner Battlefield

Have you ever contemplated the conflicting aspects of your inner self? Many refer to this struggle as the “shadow self” or “inner demons.” Personally, I've come to realize that various versions of ourselves are constantly competing for our attention. This insight, which may seem familiar to many, has been a crucial part of my self-discovery journey over the years.

Those who have paved the way before us have effectively highlighted the necessity of healing and extending unconditional love to ourselves. The more unresolved issues we carry, the more susceptible we become to the dark and twisted thoughts that arise from our past experiences and fantasies.

A well-known saying suggests that the universe resides within us, meaning that both the chaos and beauty of existence are also found within. As social beings, we tend to reflect one another, adopting habits and quirks from those around us, while also learning about the potential good we can recognize in our shared experiences. But what about the reality that exists within us?

The days are long gone when we merely mirrored those in our immediate communities. Today, we are bombarded by tailored media and advertisements dictating how we should behave, often conforming to these expectations because no one desires to feel like an outsider.

Social media algorithms keep us entrenched in our comfort zones, allowing us to hear only what we wish to hear. We are conditioned to harbor disdain for those who hold differing opinions. When will we reclaim our ability to think independently? It’s time to burst that bubble and embrace discomfort.

Deep within us lies a part that doubts our most profound convictions. Take the time to explore that aspect of yourself and ask, “Why?” You might be surprised by what you discover.

I once believed that I needed various vices to broaden my understanding and uncover new dimensions of my identity. However, I have since realized that stillness and allowing my mind to wander freely—without excessive analysis—are far more enlightening.

While many strive to reach their higher selves, we often overlook the reality that our lower selves remain, waiting for opportunities to emerge during moments of vulnerability or temptation. Is it possible to eradicate this lower self? The struggle is challenging, but perhaps we need a continual reminder of what we do not wish to become.

Who are you at your core, amidst the multitude of selves? Are you merely the sum of your various identities, or do you define yourself by the choices you make in each moment?

In my understanding, I perceive my Main self as distinct from the other selves that influence my thoughts and actions. This distinction is separate from external influences.

My Main self is the observer, witnessing the interplay between my higher and lower selves, making decisions based on my beliefs and knowledge.

I sometimes categorize these selves as me, myself, and I (with "I" representing the Main self), although this can become convoluted when explaining it to others. I often simplify this by referring to them as my inner child and inner teenager, as these selves tend to manifest in those forms at times.

Ultimately, what I’ve come to realize is that no matter how you segment your inner selves, it’s crucial to focus on nurturing your higher selves, as that is where true growth resides. Avoid listening to the parts of you that might lead to regression.

As the video "Worlds Collide (ft. Nicki Taylor) | Worlds 2015 - League of Legends" illustrates, the chaos and beauty within us can mirror the vast universe.

Chapter 2: The Power of Self-Exploration

In this journey of self-exploration, we must also acknowledge the darker aspects we may wish to conceal.

The official lyric video for "Koven - Worlds Collide" highlights the internal struggles we face, emphasizing the importance of recognizing and confronting our multifaceted identities.