Chapter 1: The Early Days of Competition

From a young age, I was deeply engaged in various sports, whether it was soccer, football, rugby, or wrestling. I relished any challenge that tested my physical capabilities. Even in situations where I was overmatched, I found a sense of fulfillment in pushing my opponents to their limits, ensuring they had to exert every ounce of effort to defeat me.

Sports and fitness are unique in that they don’t allow for self-deception regarding physical limitations. If you come up short, it’s a clear indication that you either didn’t give it your all or failed to train adequately. These are factors you can control. If you were lean, you learned to be agile; if you were stocky, you figured out how to leverage your weight—understanding that you needed to hit the quicker opponent hard before he could wear you down.

But sometimes, despite your best efforts, you simply lose—not due to a lack of commitment, but because your opponent was superior. Losing to someone who matched my determination never angered me; instead, I found value in those experiences, viewing them as opportunities for growth.

These hard-earned lessons proved invaluable when I began to engage in physical confrontations with other young men. If I lost a fight, I made sure that the other guy would remember my name. I held no grudges against those I fought; the conflict ended with the bout.

This honesty forced me to take responsibility for the elements within my control. This mindset not only improved my writing but also shaped my character as a Marine. When knocked down, I didn’t search for someone to blame; I simply picked myself back up.

Joining the Marine Corps was a significant test, pushing me both physically and mentally in ways I could hardly prepare for. Learning to accept defeat and endure a few bruises—both literally and metaphorically—was essential to becoming someone suited for the challenges of military life.

Chapter 2: The Writer's Evolution

As I matured, I found myself grappling with my identity as an intellectual, often feeling like an outsider among my fellow Marines. I was wary of being labeled a nerd. My early literary influences were, unsurprisingly, figures like Bukowski, Aurelius, and Hemingway. Coming from a sports background, I was drawn to their powerful, masculine prose that resonated deeply with me.

As time progressed, my literary interests expanded to include authors like Palahniuk, West, Ford, and O'Connor, who were prominent in the MFA landscape at the time. This shift led me to engage more seriously with literature, immersing myself in the works of Kafka, Dostoyevsky, and Faulkner.

It was during this period that politics began to dominate the identities of many individuals. The literary community was inundated with corporate-sponsored wokeness and a language filled with passive-aggressive complaints and notions of social injustice. Writers quickly learned that to succeed, they had to conform to this new ideology.

I, however, chose a different path. My stubborn nature has always prevented me from compromising my convictions. The essence of who I am—my values, passions, and morals—cannot be exchanged for monetary gain.

Moreover, I have always relished the role of the Devil’s advocate, challenging the status quo. Those writers who follow the mainstream and avoid controversy are seldom remembered. They fade away within a few generations.

To make a lasting impact, I recognized the need to forge my own way. I consider Hunter S. Thompson one of the greatest countercultural writers of his time, and I often reflect on what he would think of today's societal landscape; I believe he would resonate with many of my cultural critiques.

One of my critiques revolves around the false dichotomy presented by contemporary society: on one side, progressive liberalism, which often veers into nihilism, and on the other, a form of conservative protestantism that fails to conserve anything meaningful. Both are merely two sides of the same consumerist coin, reacting to each other without offering genuine alternatives.

As long as these factions remain at odds, they co-opt every issue to serve their agendas. This perspective reduces complex situations to mere political fodder, reflecting a selfish and narrow-minded approach.

If I write about using psychedelics for self-discovery, I’m labeled a leftist. If I discuss my wartime experiences, I’m seen as a right-wing extremist. Engaging in conversations about the tragedies in Ukraine or Gaza often comes with the risk of being pigeonholed or vilified.

True literature should aim to humanize everyone, recognizing our shared humanity. A novel filled with one-dimensional characters representing good and evil will inevitably bore readers. Only those lacking intellectual integrity will struggle to engage beyond the first chapter.

We are left with a curated experience in literature, news, and media, where everything is filtered to avoid offense or challenge—except for those deemed undesirable by the majority.

This curation is managed by editors, publishers, and critics who may lack the talent or passion to create themselves. Frustrated by their own limitations, they define what talent should look like, often leading to art that lacks authenticity.

This phenomenon explains why contemporary literature—from major publishing houses to niche magazines—feels monotonous and homogenized.

When we lose the ability to connect beyond our own beliefs, society fractures into competing factions, each vying for dominance and market share.

To be a writer, one must embrace a certain level of madness, willing to dismantle the sacred ideologies that society upholds. Your mission is to challenge these sacred cows, regardless of the potential consequences. If your writing never faces scrutiny or backlash, it lacks the courage necessary to be impactful.

In the end, writing that isn’t bold isn’t worth reading. Seek out something that ignites your passion and is worth fighting for.

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