Chapter 1: Embracing Change

The year 2021 began on a high note for me; I welcomed my first child into the world, who was both joyful and healthy. Additionally, I found myself with the opportunity to write more, even if my time was somewhat limited compared to the hectic schedule of juggling two jobs—one full-time and another part-time.

However, as the year drew to a close, I faced unexpected challenges. Just last month, I found myself in a significant mental health slump. Individuals from my past, whom I had thought I had put behind me, resurfaced, catching me completely off guard. When the past comes knocking at your door, you're often unprepared for the emotional baggage they bring along, a rather unwelcome surprise.

Rather than confronting these challenges head-on, I made the mistake of allowing them to consume me. I stopped writing—a coping mechanism that had always helped me navigate my feelings. Ironically, I lost my clarity when faced with a barrage of distressing events. I misplaced my trust, complicating my ability to tackle issues directly, especially when there were whispers behind my back.

Consequently, I decided to take a “break” from the internet. I say “break” because I was genuinely contemplating erasing my online presence and hiding away from the world. Thankfully, my partner encouraged me to stay connected. He has an innate ability to support me during tough times, even if it means taking the heat for me. His presence was invaluable, helping me navigate through my emotional turmoil.

Looking back, I’m grateful I didn’t retreat completely, as that would have led to regret. What would I have gained by shutting myself off from the world? The opinions of those behind a screen? Or perhaps those from my past that I had buried deep within my mind? Ultimately, I realized it would be me who would lose everything in an effort to shield myself from potential hurt.

For several weeks, I allowed myself to dwell in a cycle of “what ifs” and “could have beens,” retreating from my online presence and barely expressing my thoughts. I let my mind sink into a dark place while the world around me continued as if nothing had changed. What was I expecting? Life isn’t stagnant, and I had to return to my instinct: to bottle up my feelings. Yet, suppressing emotions has a way of surfacing eventually.

After a few weeks, I managed to pull myself together and initiated an early spring cleaning of my life. I cleaned my home from top to bottom, cranked up the organization mode, and dove in with determination, music blasting in the background.

During this cleaning spree, inspiration struck me—perhaps it was the act of cleaning, the music, or a combination of both. I dusted off my cherished notebook and began writing, pouring out my feelings and dark thoughts—the entirety of my experiences.

Releasing all of it felt liberating. I refused to let fear dictate my actions any longer. While I may never fully know what others think of me, I realized that their opinions don’t define who I am. I do not hold grudges, as they weigh heavily on the soul and drain energy. In the brief time we have on this earth, who has the luxury for that?

Now, I find myself in a place where I can reflect on my thoughts and feelings, ready to explore each one, document them, and let them go.

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Chapter 2: The Power of Expression

Expressing oneself can be a vital tool in overcoming emotional hurdles. Writing, in particular, can serve as a therapeutic outlet, allowing individuals to articulate their feelings and experiences. In the process of externalizing these emotions, we can begin to heal and regain control over our lives.