Chapter 1: The Battle with Inner Demons

Negative thoughts emerge from the depths of my past like dark shadows.

These thoughts are tainted with shame, fierce and clawing like creatures with jagged teeth that can wound anyone who dares to approach. Their eyes shimmer with unwarranted hostility. However, I refuse to let my past scars affect those around me. I won’t inflict pain upon their bodies or souls when they have given me no cause for concern.

Instead, I seize those tormenting thoughts, grappling with them until they are subdued and reshaped into the fabric of a story. I mold them into new characters or fragment their traits across various fictional figures, ensuring they cannot harm anyone else.

Then, I immerse them in a narrative where I hold the reins, where they cannot dictate my actions or feelings. I orchestrate their fates, asserting my control over the chaos. Writing becomes my weapon against negativity.

Chronic pain saps the vitality from my body, steals the breath from my lungs, and clouds my thoughts like a thick fog.

It consumes my capacity for hope and dreams, crippling my ability to function as I wish. It robs me of the potential I could have realized. Nevertheless, I refuse to let it infiltrate my heart. If it encroaches upon an opportunity, I will sever that connection and forge a new path. It may cause me to falter, but I will never allow it to halt my progress.

Thus, I employ strategies to endure. I seek to become resilient against its onslaught, to reclaim my strength, or to simply outlast the flare-up. I intentionally divert my gaze to stimuli that captivate my mind, allowing me to temporarily escape the reality of my struggles. I indulge in webtoons, novels, anime, or Korean dramas that evoke laughter, tears, and an obsession with their intricate details.

I find solace in various forms of fiction, distracting myself from the discomfort.

Real strength lies not in constant productivity, but in understanding how to harness one's power effectively.

Chapter 2: The Role of Fiction in Healing

The first video explores the impact of literary fiction on personal experiences, highlighting how pain and creativity intertwine.

The second video examines the transformative effect of a particular book on one’s perception of pain, illustrating the relationship between literature and emotional healing.